It’s been a long time since I’ve written on this blog. I’ve wanted to. I’ve had exams, I’ve graduated, I’ve travelled, I’ve sung in an opera or two. But what it all comes down to is that I just created a habit of not writing, and it snowballed. But today, people from all over the globe are writing five-minute Friday posts in honor of Sara Frankl, and I saw no greater way to start writing here again than this.
I’ve always considered myself to be a person lacking in strength and courage. I have many times pictured myself in tragic or painfully difficult situations, and I can easily see myself as the type of person who would sink into a deep depression or wallow in sadness or grief, with hope and strength as distant ideas to wish for, not courage-giving companions.
And then I started reading Sara’s blog. Though it was just off and on, every time I read something she wrote, I felt the strength and the courage with which she lives each and every day. I saw through her words on my screen the JOY that she chose and continues to choose. There was such peace in her, even when she wrote about the hard stuff. Through pain and dissapointment and the reworking and rewriting of dreams and hopes and goals, her one mantra, her one goal:
Through reading her blog, through seeing the lives she has touched, through soaking up the responses surrounding her going home, I am changed. Sara, a person I’ve never met, a person who I will never meet, has changed me in so many unique ways that it’s hard to put words to it.
All I know to say is that I see now that there is a strength of the greatest kind that can be found, regardless of how tragic or unfair a situation may seem. It is not a strength that comes from me, but from Him. I can look ahead to any day–good, bad, or worse, and know that because it is not about me, but about Him, I can face anything. I can choose Joy. I will choose Joy.
I. Choose. Joy.
Thank you, Sara. Thank you for allowing the Lord to use you in my life and in the lives of so many others. I will cherish your words and all that mean, always.